Surrender and Trust When Manifesting

Surrendering can feel very difficult for those who are so used to controlling things from a place of fear and anxiety. This is still something that pops up from time to time for me, but I have gotten a lot better at surrendering and trusting. The act of surrendering is a repeated decision we make over and over again. It’s a conscious choice practiced persistently, but it helps to get clear on what you are surrendering and what that means for you. This clarity can help us remain true to our decision to surrender, making it something empowering and relieving rather than an act of resistance. There is nothing inherently special about the role of surrendering, but it can feel that way when it has felt so difficult to trust for a very long time.

However, there will be some resistance as you dive into surrendering. When I know that something will be particularly difficult for me at first, such as shifting my awareness away from an old identity, I fully accept, to the best of my ability, that there will be resistance. I do not try to deny it, avoid it, or go around it, I accept it completely. This does not mean feeling thrilled and excited about it- but rather deciding not to see the old self as an obstacle or a problem to be fixed. Accepting the old self as it is is an act of surrender.

Whether you are aware of it consciously or not, you are essentially making the first step towards trusting I AM/God/your True Self. You are also moving towards trusting yourself as you are now as you take a step back and process a new perspective on the old self. I know that when triggers come up, they are not a threat to my desires or my True Self. I know it is a natural part of coming back Home. Therefore, resisting any resistance is subconsciously telling myself that I do not trust God or this process.

So, what are we surrendering to?

To God, to our imagination, to our creative power- our True Self. We are also surrendering to what is- the process, the old self, the circumstances, the past- all one with God either way. There is no separation. While the illusory self is caught up in worry, I AM is always there silently, waiting without judgment. The vastness of who we are and our imagination does not disappear when we fear; it only waits to be acknowledged, to be surrendered to, to be trusted.

Our illusory self is an illusion because we tend to fall for it being the only truth, and we make up stories as to what it must mean. Therefore, this old self was never the issue, only our perspective of it and, subsequently, our reactions to it. It is this very perspective that keeps us stuck, not the old self. And how you react to it, predominantly, does matter.

Are You Used to Having Problems and Solving Them?

If so, it will feel like you need to figure out the solution to the circumstances and how to fix the “obstacle” of the illusory self. Trust is recognizing that the solution already exists without your micromanagement. It’s the ability to recognize that the solution is in the circumstance, is in the triggers. Resistance is just another way for the old self to protect you, and trust is realizing that it is safe to surrender to the unseen solution. God/I AM is always here- so the solution is not something far away or unknown. Unseen is not the same as being unknown.

“You don’t have to go any place to find it. In fact, because you are one with God, God could never be so far off even to be near, because nearness implies separation, and He is not separated from man.”  – Neville Goddard,  Lecture: The Potter’s House

 

Striving for a solution itself is also an illusion because the desire exists regardless of our awareness of there being a solution to our current problems. Your imagination is the solution, and the conscious, deliberate use of your imagination, combined with surrendering and trust, is God in action. If manifesting or coming back Home to your True Self feels like a problem to be solved, you are more than likely in need of a perspective shift. It is not even a perspective; it’s your Truth.

Controlling and Micromanaging

Holding onto the idea that your circumstances and your old self are a problem that needs to be fixed is a way to forcefully control yourself. Controlling may give you a false sense of safety and security. “If I don’t do something and control the outcome, then nothing will change, and I will be stuck here forever.” We aren’t controlling anything on the outside, and the internal control of our awareness/focus is more of a surrendered control.

With surrendered control, we know that God/I AM is always here, whether we feel it, believe it or not. With micromanaging, control is forced when you assume that I AM is only here sometimes, like the times you feel positive and confident, so you subsequently try to make I AM/your creative power work for you and “be here” when you don’t feel that way. We don’t force our True Self; we trust it is always present. And disempowering feelings, reactions, emotions, circumstances, etc., are not a punishment.

I know it can feel like that when the emotions and triggers are so intense. As someone who has suffered from the debilitating effects of childhood trauma, I have experienced intense, all-consuming anxiety. I noticed a pattern every time I felt like it was spiraling into chaos- I was focused more outwardly on the worldly illusions and less internally within myself. I felt frustrated at myself and fought too hard to control my emotions and micromanage the circumstances and my actions to avoid being triggered or doing something wrong.

“Test yourselves and see. Do you not realize that Jesus Christ is in you?” (II Corinthians 13:5)

Trust Is Who You Truly Are

We also do not need to force ourselves to trust either because trust is who you truly are. It is your natural essence to trust deeply, but your misjudgment of trust being far away and distant will feel like you need to find a solution to this “problem”. Trust being unfelt does not make it unknown, nor is it one particular feeling or emotion- it is a decision, and it is fluid because I AM everything. You are everything.

This journey is not about becoming your True Self or becoming someone who trusts and surrenders. Trust is not unknown to our True Self- it is always there quietly witnessing. And as you surrender and surrender, you will feel this, recognize this, and accept this more.